Sigh

You know, every single time I tell myself I must complete a certain amount of work by whatever day. I plan it out nicely.

Then like now, its 12mn and I havnt accomplished shit.

And my eyelids are like cannot stay open and its another case of a lose-lose situation. I can't work with high efficiency while staying awake, but if I go to sleep im delaying my work again and pushing everything back. Especially when now its not homeworks and all its a whole bunch of assignments and stuff.

I cannot afford to not get my EE. But I dont even have a topic yet, or even a general idea.

I need to finish my econs IA plan by this week.

In fact I need to finish the entire econs IA by the week after WOW because after that Math Port and Explorally will clash and if I still have my IA hanging around at that time its no joke.

TOK reflections are due. I also need to read up the next chapter.

I have not read a single English text other than Siddartha and HuckFinn. Heck I dont even have them.

CAS File due next tues.

Service + PM tmr, English test on Thurs, meeting Weiyang on Friday, Explorally followed by DI on sat.

I have no time.

But ignoring all the rest, the ones im still most worried about are the EE and Econs IA.

I dont know why im in this school I have mugged like mad just to score the same amount of marks as the regular slacker.

God help me.

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On a separate note, I realise today marks 1 month away from the most emo day every year according to past experiences. I used to be so enthusiastic about this day and would call it my favourite day in the year, nowadays (years actually) it has become more of dread.

There has been nothing positive about it these years. We'll see if this year is any different. But I doubt it.

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You know, this is starting to become a bad blog. I used to post about everything, the happy stuff, the sad stuff, so it was a good mix. But nowadays I dont even have time to post about the wonderful things that happen and instead only the sadder stuff that I have a need to express will appear here, the ratio gets imbalanced.

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God, the only one who can bring me through. I trust in You.