I'm not the easiest person to love
I'm often the one who lets things go unresolved
Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
I'm not too proud of some things
I've done in my life
The skeletons in my closet
Are too big for me to hide
Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
Blessed Charity
You're on the side of me
on the side of me
'Cause everyone needs a friend to hold
when it's cold outside
and there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
all alone I cried
there was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
but you
I'm not the easiest person to love
But you, you've opened your heart to show me what I'm worth
'Cause you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
What a mystery
You're on the side of me
on the side of me
'Cause everyone needs a friend to hold
when it's cold outside
and there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
all alone I cried
there was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
I remember when nobody cared
Nobody cared
But you
Yeah you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
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I like the way the song starts out. Because its so true.
More than two years into this journey, it doesnt change that fact. There are still so many aspects of myself that even I myself do not quite like.
Yet all the same, I am loved. As a whole package, with flaws and everything, I am loved.
We are loved.
I have recently come to understand what relentless grace is really all about. Where God pursues us with His love. And its amazing that He does that despite us as who we are.
He is on the side of us.
And sometimes, you come to realise that really, that is all you need.
It was a soaking wet day today, as I pondered over the words of this song standing at the JRL bus stop. In the rain, in the cold, I find my shelter.
It doesnt matter who I am, it doesnt matter how in so many ways I am far from perfect.
I know my worth.
My worth is in God.
What amazing love, what amazing grace.
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On a completely separate issue, there was another of those flying insects at my house today, this time my bro sprayed it with an insect repellent. I took it up and wrapped it the newspaper before proceeding to smash the life out of it.
My bro thought I was crazy, smashing an insect to smithereens. But I just wanted to make sure its dead. Its much more terrible dying by the repellent eating you up. This is instant.
But somehow euthanasia just came to my mind. If it is more humane to kill and insect than let it die by itself, what about people?
Haha random question.