Expectations and disappointments. I suppose I shouldn't be imposing my ideas of how things should be in the first place.

I found this though, and it might be something to think about:

"Cynicism looks in the wrong direction. It looks for the cracks in Christianity instead of looking for the presence of Jesus. It is an orientation of the heart. The...cure for cynicism, then, is this: develop an eye for Jesus."
- Paul E. Miller