Dark night

One. I look around me and I feel overwhelmed by all the lives about me. I feel like I need to be doing something for them but instead I am paralyzed.

Two. Inside my heart a rebellion sparks. When every bit of my mind tells me it ought to be otherwise, why do I still feel the way I do? I think it's childish behavior, I wonder if other people would feel the same way, or if it's just because it's me. It's silly of me but...how can you change what rouses your heart?